[HER]
sometimes i wonder..whether dey r reali my frens or mayb dey just coincidentally were der wenever i nd dem..sometimes i felt lyk dey didnt fully understand me..eversince i had a guy..dey wld link everytink dat i did was just an excuse 4 me to get away frm dem n to b wif him..gees~..tell me..y wld i do dat?..
mayb to dem..i wld do dat 4 my own benefit..which is to spend tym wif my guy..bt den..isnt it absurd 4 me 2 spend tym almost everyday just 2 meet him??goshh..and i noe..wen i told dem dat im gonna b absent 4 e day coz im sick..dey definitely had a hard tym believing me..
ahh~..i dun care..its simply nt in my area of control to ensure dat dey trust me..coz dey,themselve shud noe dat in every frenship..there shud have trust amongst dem..i do trust dem..no doubt..bt do dey trust me??i dun have an ans 4 dat..coz its totally up to dem..bt i reali do hope dat i do atleast get a tinge of trust frm dem..or mayb i hope dat dey understand me or my situation..
thank god he was der to listen 2 my woes..coz i cldnt bottle up everytink inside me..i definitely nd a listening ear..i wanted 2 share wif my dear frens..bt den it seems dat dey too were bz wif their stuffs..so nah~...i wldnt wanna b a burden 2 dem..having 2 listen to my blabberings..therefore he was e onli place 4 me to confide in..and i felt pretty easy after i spouted everytink to him..he understands me most..im truly grateful dat i have him as my guy as well as a fren..i felt at ease..he told me dat i cldnt change their thinking towards me..somehow i tink dat he's rite..
but i tink dat eventhough dey dun seem to trust me as much..dey had been a great help to me..its obvious la seh..we've been frens 4 so long..we studied and shared almost everytink 2geda..mayb dey were just nt used 2 nt having me ard..thus e thought..well..i do understand dat..hee..bt he also did say dat dey will understand my situation sooner or ltr coz dey definitely will experience e same situation as i did..teehee~
wateva it is..thanks 4 being my fren..i do appreciate it lots..and to you...thanks 4 everytink dat u've done 4 me..great having u ard as my companion..love ya lots((:
